there's a hole in my life

i'm having husband withdrawals. he's been gone for about a week and there's nothing i want more than a hug from him right now.

 

  surprisingly, i have gotten used to sleeping alone, which i think is a great thing and a not so great thing. i'm not as terrified at night without him. every now and then i leave the hall light on and sleep with a gun. last night in particular, i heard a knock on our door at 2 am so i grabbed the gun and checked down stairs. my paranoia must have kicked in because there was no one there. i also sleep diagonally across the bed when he's not there...is that weird or what!?   chris is more than half way through IOC! less than a month to go and he has most of next week off because of thanksgiving. i'm so proud of him and how well he's been doing in this course. it's so intense; mentally, emotionally, and especially physically exhausting. plus his birthday was this wednesday so he got to spend it in the freezing cold doing who knows what.   this week hasn't been too bad for me, it could just be that i'm getting used to not having him around to help as much. i'm slowly packing, it is ridiculous trying to pack while my kids are pulling things out of the box, throwing random things in, and climbing all over me! so i've just been packing about a box a day. our current plan is too pack up all of our belongings, put them in a storage facility here in VA, we'll all drive to CA for christmas, i'll live with family while chris flys back to VA to finish GIOC, and then, depending on where we will be stationed... well thoughs are our plans so far. we'll have to finish our plan once we get orders.   ok so, our duty station... well after chris found out we were on the list to go to NC, i called his captain and asked him to change it to CA (either pendleton or 29 palms, it's about the same distance from our families). he was so nice and said he's do his best to change it for us. so that's why i've been hopeful that it will change. just recently, the infantry guys got their official orders. the intelligence guys (chris is intel) are supposed to get their official orders next week. (more waiting)! so once again i am very anxious to see where we are actually being stationed to. (oh, but it could change again during the rest of his training...blah).     i'll just focus on getting though these next 2 days for now!