"happy dreams"

I titled this post "happy dreams" because every night the kids and I say our good night prayers and ask to have happy dreams...

 

Yesterday morning at 6am, Lincoln ran into my room with the biggest smile on his face. There was no hiding how happy he was. He started telling me that he saw daddy in his room. Lincoln said he was scared and that daddy put his hand on his cheek and said, "you're okay." It was the sweetest thing hearing Lincoln explain his comforting encounter with daddy. he even demonstrated by softly putting his hand on his own cheek the way daddy did.

 

After he told me his whole experience, I got up to check his room and the house to make sure there wasn't some creep-o acting as his dad. there wasn't anyone of course and I know Lincoln knows his dad better than that, but I just had to make sure. Once confirmed there was no one there, I called Chris... because part of me wanted to make sure he was still alive and it wasn't his spirit visiting Lincoln. Chris is alive and well. It was just so interesting for me to here this from my little 2 1/2 year old in such detail. and although I understand most of his toddler language, there are still some things that are hard to understand or have clarified.

 

Lincoln was simply dreaming - but I don't think it was just some random dream. I truly believe Heavenly Father specially sent him that dream to comfort our sweet little Lincoln. Lincoln has been having a  really hard time with Chris being away. He brings him up often and its usually in a sad way. He'll say things like "I want daddy" or "I miss him" and he'll tell people randomly "daddy at work." Every time I end a call with Chris Lincoln starts crying or gets mad.

 

it is so incredibly hard for all of us to be apart and its just so obvious that families aren't meant to be separated for this long of a stretch. I try to be strong but it just breaks my heart to see my babies in pain from missing their father.

 

One thing that keeps me going is having the Lord by my side. I couldn't imagine going through this without the fullness of the gospel in my life. I thank Heavenly Father every day for the precious family he has blessed me with and the fact that we will be together throughout all eternity.